My Lord understands my heart though. He sees the tears and hears the thoughts of one who wishes I had done things different. Regrets are there. I am not immune to the agony of wishing I had only said this, or done that. It is useless time though. I feel cheated at times of the things others take for granted. By no fault of my own, there are things lost that have left a mark on my heart. Yet, I can not change the past. I am powerless to order any of my days. My heart is in God's healing hands. He holds every teardrop and hears every word I say aloud or in silence.
God understands our sorrows and holds us close when we feel quite alone. He has suffered himself, much more than I ever will.
He wept over Jerusalem as he knew their future without Him. They made choices as do we. The word of God says in Isaiah 'He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.' He knows the longings and silent groanings of our hearts. He also uses what we go through to help others. I really didn't care about this as I was going through the worst times of my life. Yet, after the Lord brought me through the worst of times I understood. When I see someone hurting, I have empathy.
I still think of what I wish were different, but I have hope to overcome sinking into depression.
John 16:22-23 'So with you; Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice and no one will take away your joy. In that day you will no longer ask me anything, I tell you the truth, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.'
He was talking to his disciples at the time before he went to the cross. Yet, this is a word of hope. Like me, you may have moments of sadness. Yet, we also have hope as well.